A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words...

It's always fun taking a "photo journey" down memory lane. I was going through old files today on my computer and found some pictures from vacations we took with my parents two and three years ago, pictures from birthday celebrations, Father's Day, Zack's baseball games, etc. Then I decided to go look for the box of our wedding photos. I was remembering the special part my Dad played in the ceremony. How important it was for me to have him there, to have him participate. You see, he walked me down the aisle the "first" time and conducted the ceremony and I'll never forget the sheepish grin and twinkle in his eye when he said "obey" in the vows. But this time, it was different. Zack walked me down the aisle and my Dad conducted part of the ceremony and our dear friend, Larry Lawrence, conducted the other half. I remember what a special day that was---I was marrying my best friend surrounded by our closest friends and family. Standing right there before us was my father---the cornerstone of our family, the man who could make me laugh 'till we both were crying, the man who could make me so angry we both would be shouting like the true Italians we are, the man who would give you the shirt off his back and every bit of money in his pocket. It was so important for me, for us, to have my father's blessings and he poured it out beyond measure. I knew he was so happy for me and Gary and that this was what he had dreamed for his daughter...true happiness and unconditional love. Those memories of him looking on as we said our vows will forever be etched in my mind.

When I look at these photos, it seems like a lifetime ago. He seemed so healthy and full of life, and yet it's only been 6 short years. There are so many things I wish... I wish I would have taken more time to spend with him when his mind was clear. I wish I hadn't rebelled so against his authority when I was younger. I wish he would have taken better care of himself, so this sickness wouldn't be robbing us and our family of precious time together. I wish he could remember the things that mean so much to us. I wish he were well enough to see his firstborn grandson conduct the marching band. I know his heart would swell with pride. I wish I had more pictures of him teaching Zack to swing the bat, throw the football, shoot pool. I wish he knew how much I love him...I wish I would have told him more.

He is currently at a Rehab Center in Jonesboro. Mom said he had a pretty good day today... at least it was better than yesterday when he fell trying to get out of the wheelchair. He is eating small portions, soft foods only and still does not have the strength to walk on his own. We don't know how long he will be in the Rehab Center, but pray that his therapy sessions will go well and he will be able to go home soon.

Finally, looking back at pictures from our wedding day, I had to post this one of our dear friend, Julie (Miss Jankinaround!). It is precious and makes me laugh every time I look at it. Those were such fun times...we miss you and love you!

4 sweet friends had to say...:

Di-dan said...

This is a sweet blog Tracey, but you can't kick yourself for the things you may not have done with or for your Dad. It is obvious that you have had a special relationship with him and he knows that...after all, he is Italian too. :-) He probably didn't mean half of what he said or did either, that's just how life is sometimes. :-) You have a sweet family and I am glad you all have each other to rely on right now. I'm sure it is renewing your sense of 'family.' Just know that your blogger buddies here in GA love you and that we're going to be here for you, no matter what happens in life...I mean that. I say 'WE,' but I especially mean 'ME'!!! :-) You are my buddy!

Jennifer said...

Thank you for offering us a glimpse into your life and your family. What a special bond you have with your dad.....and nothing..not disease or death will ever take that away from you.

You are blessed exceedingly abundantly, Tracey.

Cantini #3 said...

I so remember that day. You looked so beautiful. It was a great day. The music was pretty good too!

Blackie knows how much you love him. He always will, it's in his heart...he knows.

Phil White said...

Tracey, thanks for the update on your father and the insight you offer into your relationship.

We continue to pray for all of you.

Free Website templatesFree Flash TemplatesFree joomla templatesSEO Web Design AgencyMusic Videos OnlineFree Wordpress Themes Templatesfreethemes4all.comFree Blog TemplatesLast NewsFree CMS TemplatesFree CSS TemplatesSoccer Videos OnlineFree Wordpress ThemesFree Web Templates